for reasons unknown

I pack my case, I check my face
I look a little bit older
I look a little bit colder
With one deep breath one big step
I move a little bit closer
There was an open chair
we sat down in open air
i flew and flied
i knew if destiny is kind i'd leave the rest in my mind

but my heart don't beat the way it used to
and my eyes, they don't see you no more
and my lips, they dont kiss the way they used to
and my eyes just don't recognise you no more

For reasons unknown

all falls down

Imprints you left in her life begin to fade
Her eyes barely recognise your face anymore
You're just somebody she used to know
Because with every thought she has left of you
she can't help but wonder, where were you when I needed you

I apologise, it was my mistake for ever loving you

crazy

Another hero. Another mindless crime.
Behind the curtain in the pantomime
Another heartache, another failed romace on the stage that holds our destiny
Inside our hearts break. Our make up begins to flake
But smile will stay on
'creatures of the underworld can't afford to fall in love'

The strongest man will fall
The beautiful will be driven crazy
The mind tricks the eyes into seeing things it fears most
It consumes and watches in contentment

in the end jealousy will have its way with all of us
but thank you for curing me from my ridiculous obsession with love.

child's play

Pretty things

Start a new chapter
Things have changed, but she's programmed not to care
One day she will realise she's the only one to blame

She's spoilt. Daddy gave her everything she ever asked for.
Too late now to realise she asked him for all the wrong things.
Shoulda asked him to buy back time.
Run away. Mummy always said she had a bit of tin in her.

People change, but you don't.
Too caught up in your bullshit, you pity yourself too much.
She's just another one of your victims that you're too proud to realise how much you hurt.
Lucky for her she can be just as cold as you, but she chooses not to be.
She'll let you have your way till she won't.

So when the day comes she will move on and smile.
You however, will continue to live your selfish lifestyle
pushing away everyone
justifying your many failed relationships with
'everything happens for a reason'

im just waiting for you to grow up.
There is a price to pay
nothing is ever enough but everything is too much to handle.

Dirty Pretty Things.

live

laugh

linger

love

learn

rage

Repeat process.

no longer her sanctuary
no longer the place that cleared her thoughts
no longer a place she went when she felt low

she closed her eyes for hours and tried to sleep.
when she finally opened them
she knew she had to get out
before her insanity got the best of her.

rubbish

I never meant to hurt you

I never understood what those words meant. Six words strung together that are supposed to bring about a feeling of forgiveness from the person they are being said to. But i don't understand how. How can you hurt someone and then say that you never meant to. When your being a bitch to someone of course you know you're hurting them. When you break up with someone of course you know you're shitting on their feelings.

And yes, i understand that in fits of rage people say things they don't mean. But come on, I'm sure that in this 'hazy fit of rage' you're fully aware of how cold you are being. Fair enough, if you don't realise how much it might actually hurt them. 'i needed to do it for myself' still doesn't justify anything because being selfish is what hurts people most. Thus, i never meant to hurt you does not cut it.

I guess so many people are forgiven because it has just become one of those cliches people just accept.

But hey if it makes sense to you feel free to let me know, because i sure as hell need it to.